SO FREAKING HARD!!!!!!!!!!

It's been a little over a year since my surgery and I would do it againin a minute!  However, it's gotten so hard.  I have lost 110lbs, which is a lot, I know, but I want all of the weight gone TODAY.  If anyone finds a surgery for that please let me know.  I will admit that I do cheat and eat some bad things and I have not been exercising like I should be.  Life is crazy right now.  Dylan just turned 8, which makes me completely sad.  Crazy right!?  That's my baby...and he's just growing up way to fast.  He doesn't even let me kiss him in public anymore.  He's in tackle football of course and that consumes 5 days of our week for about 2-3 hours on those days.  I feel like our life is just going through the motions.  I'm trying to teach myself to sit back and enjoy each stage of my babies lives.  Jackson is 3 now and BAD!  He's so cute though...and he definitely knows it.  He looks at you with those big brown eyes when he does something bad and says "I'm sorry".  How do you get mad at that??  But, all that being said that's where I am and still have so far to go.  I have to get myself in check and focus on myself sometimes.  I am determined to lose this weight and NEVER want to go back to where I was.  It's just so mental because even though I have lost over a hundred pounds I still see myself as the person I was before.  I know that I'm not but lately when I look in the mirror I just have this attitude of disgust.  I don't know what is wrong with me but I am gonna shake this and move forward on my journey.  God has blessed me with a great life and I AM going to be the best I can be.  Until next time...<3

I know it's been a while...

I know it's been a while since I have blogged but life has been busy and Dylan has been in baseball.  So, it's been 9 months since my surgery and I'm off all of my medication.  I'm very happy about that.  I have lost 100lbs and am completey proud of myself and how far I've come.  I do have a lot further to go but I am taking everything day by day to achieve my goal.  Here's a pic of me and Doug about 3 weeks ago.